Im back...

Well, I know it has been a really long time, but I am finally back.... I traveled to Africa this summer and just returned with my beautiful baby daughter. She is truly amazing and I still cant believe she is mine... I am in shock that I get to wake up each morning and look into the beautiful brown eyes of my baby girl...

I will be switching to a private blog as soon as I get time to set one up, but for all of those still waiting, I know the wait is hard but hang in there, it is so worth the ride!!

Hope you have all had an amazing summer

:) Robyn

trip...

So although I hate to do it, I will be taking a bit of a break from my blog. I am leaving on Monday on a trip and wont be back until possibly the middle of September. I would love to be able to update my blog while I am gone, but am unsure how much access I will have to the internet, and so will basically be taking a hiatus!

Tune in again in Sept. for updates on the adoption front...

For all of you who are waiting, I am sending good thoughts out into the universe. I hope to come back from my trip and hear lots of good news. For those waiting for court dates, I have my fingers and toes crossed for you too and hope to come home to news about travel dates!! And for all of the imagine families, I hope that everything is sorted out quickly in such a way that your journeys can continue also...

I know this journey is a roller coaster, and some days it just seems like we cant take any more waiting, but I for one am glad that we all have each other.
John Lennon says "A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is
reality." May all of our dreams come true!

take care all, have a great summer!

Robyn :)

childhood memories...

I have many wonderful memories from my childhood. My dad putting me on his shoulders as we walked to daycare together. My mom making me chocolate rice krispie squares. Building forts in my school yard at recess. Playing for hours on end with my best friend in her backyard... But also, I have things from my childhood that are important memories that I want to share with my child.
One of my best friends sent me an email in April about a book that she loved as a child, The Travels of Doctor Dolittle. She really wanted a copy to share with her three children. It was a favorite (along with Come over to my house), and she wondered how she could get her hands on a copy. This week a copy arrived in my mailbox (I managed to track it down to surprise her) and it made me think how important it is to share my own memories (special books, music, pictures) with my child and also to help them make special memories themself. Now we shouldnt talk too much about my favorite childhood stories because while my friends were lovely Dr. Seuss type stories about men who talk to animals, and creatures that invite others to visit their homes, mine was about...... wait for it......

a Bear that eats a family... it is called The Story of Horace by Alice M Coats..

Yes, I am sorry to say it is true. It is a story of a bear named Horace who lives with a hunter and his family, and each day he eats one more family member. Now I have to point out that I was obsessed with this book when I was four and it is no reflection of me as an adult, no really.... My parents did their best to try and convince me to take a different book out of the library, but nope, I wouldnt budge, people eating bear story it was!

anyhow, I have been collecting lovely stories about rabbits and bears (not homocidal ones) and fairies and frogs to share with my child, and hope that I can share some of my own (non scary) memories from my own wonderful childhood.

I would love to hear what other people's favorite stories from childhood were....

Robyn :)

p.s. oh and in case you are all wondering, although it is an extremely rare book, yup I actually do have a copy of the Story of Horace (ya gotta love Ebay)

strollers...

Ok, first, yes, sorry, I have been a bad blogger!!! Summer school has been overwhelming, and tomorrow it finally draws to an end and I get to start my summer vacation (hallelujah!!!)

This week has been a busy one... Planning for class, writing report cards.. oh yeah, and stroller shopping.
I have always loved the Zooper stroller, and I have heard that they have recently discontinued them. I managed to find a floor model at TJ kiddie store, and now it is sitting in my foyer waiting for a little person to put into it. Yes, I have read all the reviews, and I know it is a bit bulky and weighs a bit more than it should but there are many reasons why I love this stroller. The first being that you can switch the seat to face you or face ahead. Since attachment and bonding is such an important issue with adoption, I love the idea of my baby and I getting to see each other while we are out and about. The stroller also has three sturdy wheels so it will have no problem with the walking trails near my house (yes I live on a mountain..). It comes with a rain cover, UV cover, has an adjustible handle bar, locking front wheels, and will fit an infant car seat without buying an extra sixty dollar attachment (what do you think of that Bob corporation?)

I love my new stroller, and cant wait to get a chance to use it. If you are looking for one and can find a Zooper Zydeco, snap it up, they wont last long...

:)

Prayers needed...

Please send all of your prayers and good energy out into the universe for the clients of Imagine Adoption agency which declared bankruptcy today. http://www.imagineadoption.ca/documents/BDONotice.pdf

To those with referrals already and those waiting for visas my thoughts and prayers are with you. I know this is a really scary time for you all. For the other families who have already paid fees and have files ongoing, I hope that this can all be worked out for you and that your adoptions can proceed without interruption. As if this journey is not emotional and scary enough...

A scary and sad day for many families...

Robyn

hopeful....

Well, another week has come and gone, and yes I am still waiting.... I was in a bit of a funk for the past two weeks and told pretty much everyone that I didn't want to talk about adoption anymore, but now I'm feeling a little better... (although I am still not up for rehashing it again and again with the people in my life)

I went into a consignment store not too far from my friend's house, and found it wonderful.. again, I probably shouldn't be allowed to shop without supervision, but I did. I cruised through the consignment clothing section and found the cutest little gap shoes.. (again, if it's a boy I am in trouble)... these little shoes were only 5 dollars and are brand new!! I love bargains!!

I also found the cutest little orange sun hat. It was a have to have!!

I also spent the weekend with one of my best friends and her family, and I have to say that being with them reminds me of what is important in life.. these days I spend my life stressing about money and paperwork and feeling like I am hanging by my fingernails and always on edge... but they are truly my escape.. when I am with them, I am calm... I haven't told them yet, I am moving in.. haha... I am reminded just how blessed I am, even though I am an only child, my child will be loved, have aunts, uncles and wonderful cousins..

Just like Angelina Jolie??

So I was out at a dinner with a group of people last night, and someone at the table asked the dreaded question "have you heard anything?" Nope, nada, nothing, not a thing... a person further down the table asked what we were talking about and one thing led to another and someone said, Oh, she is adopting from Africa.... and the response.... wait for it.....

"Oh, are you trying to be like Angelina Jolie?" nope, I didn't hurt him... and he had no idea why his comment was a problem...

seriously people, if I wanted to be like Angelina Jolie I would be thinking botox, collagen, and liposuction, not thousands of dollars, an emotional roller coaster that doesn't stop, a forest worth of paperwork and a life put on hold....

I am starting to really believe that people who dont live it, dont get it!! Constantly asking someone if they have heard anything is like asking someone who is trying to conceive if they are pregnant yet.... I know they try and they all want to say the right thing and be supportive, but at this point I am really sorry I told anyone about it. I should have just waited until I had plane ticket in hand and was on the way to baggage check in....


nuf said, whining done......

R